Sunday, October 07, 2007
Hey there...
Been a long time since i update this blog.Well kinda lazy and im busy finding for money and studying for exams.Haha.But i didn't study for my n levels.Finally all my papers is OVER.SO don't much stress looking at the complicated numbers,fraction etc....
I felt like i screwed my life up.Am i been pretending for who im not?? Strange things happens for a reasons.Does he did this due to my weakness to him that i don't want to lose him.Am i that stupid to forgive for what he did to me?Ok la its not that bad but still its hurts me so much.Like my dearie hadzah says,
"Ira is on the boat as me".Its true.Not only her but aisah too.We are on the boat together and slowly paddling ourselves to the conclusion as there's nothing that we can do but was just to wait.We can't force them to love us?
And this is my worst nightmares i ever encounter for my 17 years in this world.Maybe there is but all i can think off is this.Do you care for what i feel??Why can't you stop doing it to me??No use of talking to you about this cause you will give me the same thing over and over.You says something different and yesterday you said a different thing.What's this?I've been very patient to you but all you do was shouting at me for no reasons and make me angry.When im not in the mood,you will like scold me,but when you are,i will just keep it quiet and didn't even say a word to you.
If someone message your boyfriend saying like,
"Ayg","Luv u.muah!"Would you be angry?If you're not,i don't know what to say.
But i am.And you said that you were just playing around,but from the way she message is like you're with her dude! Girls instincts are always right! TRUE???Then what's the purpose of you replying her back if you said you don't want to do anything with her.Its not true she's your long lost friend but its true that she's your ex.Pictures??Don't make me lose myself and tear off the bloody pictures of yours that you said
"somethings are meant to be in that way"Then if like that i put everything that remind me of someone to be displayed in my room and let you stare at it all the while.Ok?Or maybe i tear off and say back the bloody phrase to you.You doing this cause of you want me away from you right?Just burst it out.No use of keeping it.Sooner or later i will find out to.
I can be good,if you're good but i can be bad if you make me too.Like you said, A smile can mean a thousands meanings.Doesn't mean i smile im happy.
