Sunday, April 02, 2006
sad sad sad....
Teardrops were meaningful 4 me since i fought wif saiful....i neva had such pain as dis b4...i wish i can reverse time back but i cun...its late...i didnt use my fuckin brain too think bout it...im useless...now we r juz frenz...i try my best to fade the feelin away but styl love u as my bro...wat am i talkin bout??? i love him...i cried every momment i read ur msg bout lovin me as a sis not more not less,read the past msges,think back of wat we had fun 2geder...he gif me wake up call wen i was drunk dat time...he's the onli 1 hu take care of me....he's the one hu had been by my side all along n stupid me i didnt reliase it...all i tot was enjoiment....wats dis??? c'mon lar ira...he's been loving me after we broke up but i juz didnt reliase it...even though i love him,i neva even show my love n care...i tot he styl love his x...so i juz haf 2 let him go...but im wrong...i shudnt let him go...i regret...im useless....i tried 2 kill myself coz of his love...wat the fuck?? y am i styl goin 4 his love...??y cun i go on wif life....?? i crave his name on my hand,leg...i hop we can get back 2geder...but i dun think soo...coz he's gettin engaged in like 2 mnths time...so i juz haf 2 accept the fact tat he love me as a sis....no matter wat he is,hu he is...i styl love him as wat i use to love...but i juz haf 2 show him tat i love him as my bro....love u aepool....
